DeLivEr ME~

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 21:00:33 GMT

m i cursed? i miss the time when i m still toking wif many of the frenz i once knew... but drifted apart coz of me... m i destined to be alone?

Music fills my mind
Emptiness fills my heart
Happy i may seem
But sadness deep within

Smiles i try displaying
Tears i try hiding
What you see now
Isn't what it seems

Surface you now see
Come in, you willing?
Beyond all that's displayed
Into the real within

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 12:11:03 GMT

well... adding onto my previous post... well i wun rush into a relationship... i know i m tired of being alone... but i rather be alone then to get into something tt would hurt both me and him... i rather have no one then to have someone wif me yet suffering... i wun... i rather go thru everything alone then to give agony to someone else...

long long ago

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 14:36:06 GMT

i m pissed... i typed a long entry... then my computer said the page cannot be displauyed after i click post... have to retype evrything... my comp is gettin on my nerves... and dancing on it...

after soooo long... i finally posted here... i forgotten abt this site... thanks to al... i finally got to use this faithful agent... it was here when i was transiting from the upsaid period to th blogspot period and now... faithfully waiting for me to update it once in a long while...

i dunno... something is botherin me inside... i m being eaten up from inside by an unknown feeling... yet... familiar...

i m envious of pple's attachemnt... yet i m numb to the feelin of envy... i m afraid of loneliness... yet i m used to it... talk abt low self esteem... i feel so... unwanted... feel so... deserted... esp. after Liang's stuff... i feel cursed... jinx... sucky...

i dun deserve anything do i?

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 04:53:47 GMT

how long ago was it tt i touched this blo... i have an official blog tt i use now... but once in a while coming here for somethings more private? i dunno... but at leat i know who is reading this...

feel so tired abt so many things... my class...my life... everything is screwing up... i m trying hard but i dunno why do i not seem to be successful... i suck... i do... sigh...wadeva... it is not important anymore... i screw up the past 19 plus years of my life i guess it is too late to make much changes... i hate my life..

*The \\*
Last Cigarette:	nah... weak lungs
Last Alcoholic Drink:	volka lime...
Last Car Ride:	bus? yesterday
Last Kiss:	last month
Last Good Cry:	3 nights ago
Last Library Book:	law of tort
Last book bought:	eons ago...
Last Book Read:	law of tort
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	without a paddle
Last Movie Rented:	?!?!?!?
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	*fck**
Last Beverage Drank:	Water
Last Food Consumed:	Curry Chicken rice
Last Crush:	shhhhh
Last Phone Call:	Bing
Last TV Show Watched:	News
Last Time Showered:	Last night
Last Shoes Worn:	slippers
Last CD Played:	Enya
Last Item Bought:	braclet
Last Download:	Charmed
Last Annoyance:	my classmates
Last Disappointment:	myself
Last Soda Drank:	Kickapoo
Last Thing Written:	blog
Last Key Used:	house key?
Last Words Spoken:	bye
Last Sleep:	2am last night
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	eons ago
Last Chair Sat In:	comp chair
Last Webpage Visited:	Ian's blog
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Wed, 15 Sep 2004 09:48:08 GMT

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Mon, 09 Aug 2004 18:27:54 GMT

UPdating... sigh in major depression... and i dunno wad to write...sigh..sometimes i do feel useless...and those who r reading this and still dunno i got another blog:

http://thehermit85.blogspot.com

go check it out...

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 16:23:11 GMT

it has been a long time since i typed in here... well wif the other so active...it is seldom...feelin depressed again... and juz feel like typing in here... sigh... i need more frenz... my frenz list seem to be so short...sigh sigh... i m so useless...better off dead... how abt finishing all my sleepin pills... but 8 dun kill rite?

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 14:25:14 GMT

i knew it... pple think my journel sucks... i knew it... it sucks... always did always will...coz i suck...
and alif: naughty naughty... heeheehee...
my world: hmmmm... really???

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 17:49:46 GMT

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scary but true... once met a guy in toilet (those were the 'innocent' days while i was in sec 2 or 3 when he blew me... tt guy turn out to be my history teacher... actually a teacher from NIE training as a history teacher and he taught our class... Mr A**m...

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wad did i do to u??? hmmm... well... at least i know where my food went... evil... haha... how have u been?
been to JB from 4-6 june while aaron went somewhere firther from 4-7 june... KL rite? hehe... i had fun and i hope aaron u did too... contact me when u see this... "p

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Mon, 31 May 2004 16:36:42 GMT

boo... haha...juz babbling here... heehee...so how many of u had checked out my new blog??? if u have not... please do... coz i m a attention seeker... hahaha

jukebox[celest chong free]

Tue, 25 May 2004 17:21:37 GMT

new blog add:
http://thehermit85.blogspot.com

a test to see if pple read my blog... if u r reading this...pls update ur links to my new blog...and if possible tag on my board or leave a comment...

i will keep this running wif occasional posting and stuff... but wad appears here should appear there... i still wanna keep my livejournel...coz i find lj cool... juz tt i need a blog wif more freedom in templates...

so see u at the new blog...

jukebox[ah sang ye zi]

Mon, 24 May 2004 20:18:50 GMT

Trying to blog but my comp is giving me prob again... guess it is time... new comp... may have to bring forward my to get list... which means i need alot of money...

Today is an interesting day... finally cool down... but tt's beside the point...
went for the modellin interview today... the gal there told me tt i have the conditions to be chosen and tt my eyes are attractive...then this thought arise in my mind... how many pple did she tell this to? then she got to her main pt: SGD300... she wanna collect money to give me a simple makeover and make me a portfolio... after which she will start to 'sell' me... only after tt 300 is paid then i can get a chance... sigh... if i can give ya money...chances are i no need to look for u for a job rite? but i understand... coz all this things need money... met a cute guy there also... the rest are above avg tt kind...but got one i find real cute and also a little aj... hmmm...
My jie Ally was wif me the whole day and we laughed at many things...had fun wif her today... after the modellin stuff, she came my place to get the KTV coupons... met my 2 grams... and they thought she was my stead...little did my grams know tt i m aj!!! haha... wait till her stead hears abt tt... gee... then went for ktv wif her and the gand... had alot of fun singing and imitating Fei Yu Qing... today quite fun...

Juz cannot get over Mariah Carey's Hero... sang it 2 times in KTV... also got a little yaya over Reflections by Christina... now this two songs on loop on my player... keep listeing to this 2 songs... feel like the song 'reflection' sigh...

Reflection Christina Auilera
Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

Hero Mariah Carey
There's a hero if you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are
There's an answer if you reach into your sould
And the sorrow that you know will melt away

[Chorus]
And then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you

It's a long road when you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
You can find love if you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt will disappear

[Repeat Chorus]

Lord knows dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone tear them away
Hold on there will be tomorrow
In time you'll find the way

[Reapeat Chorus]

time to change new song...

jukebox[ah sang ye zi]

Me~

Sun, 23 May 2004 18:02:02 GMT

Was reading some blogs and pple express a common curiousity to what my name is...since i m at this...might as well make full use of it rite?

Name: Timothy (tt's all u need to know)
Age: 18 years young (old...sensitive word)
Stay: Near East Coast
Hobbies: Hang out with frenz, cycle, KTV, movies, shopping, chatting...
Hates: Backstabbers and pple who betrays my trust...
Reason for Blog Title: Deliver Me is a song by Sarah Brightman (i guess u know...but wadeva) This song describes my feelings and i really like it...
Deliver Me
Deliver me, out of my sadness.
Deliver me, from all of the madness.
Deliver me, courage to guide me.
Deliver me, strength from inside me.

All of my life I've been in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.

Deliver me, loving and caring.
Deliver me, giving and sharing.
Deliver me, the cross that I'm bearing.

All of my life I was in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.

Deliver me,
Deliver me,
Oh deliver me.

All of my life I was in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.

Deliver me,
Oh deliver me.
Won't you deliver me.

so... is it enough info? wad else u wanna know... u ask i type ok?

now listening to Mariah's Hero... many times around but still like it
"There's a hero if you look inside your heart.
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away."

jukebox[mariah carey hero]

Sun, 23 May 2004 17:17:49 GMT

Well... juz found out something... i forgotten to backup my English song collection... gone... all of them... gone...
i did not sleep last nite... juz could not sleep... spend the time thinking instead... (since cannot sleep might as well make use of it) some things i thought thru:
To Get List By June 2005
Laptop
Wireless Modem
Personalise Name Card
Video Cam (can take pictures as well rite?)
To Do List By End 2004
Do well for Poly
Save up SGD1500 in my POSB bank account
Register my own drama company
Expand my social circle and frenz list

i forgot some of it liao... coz juz think and think... but did not write...

suppose to go out wif my fren today... but last min cancel... "due to some unforeseen stuff cropping up" so forget it... i spent the time rotting at home and think somemore... mood got better...then worsen...then better again... special thanks to the pple who read my journel and even more to those who had encourage me...

tmr going for some modellin audtion...was spotted when i was in chinatown mrt on 21st... surprise tt i got such experience myself... hopefully i can get a case or two so can earn some money... wish me luck...

jukebox[mariah carey hero]

Sat, 22 May 2004 17:44:33 GMT

ok... wad is gonna happen is call babble... m gonna trash out all the emotion... pardon me... and dun attack me...
was on bus juz now and i was thinking... out at the chi tea outing and i did not interact much... i mean... i wanna get to know them...i wanna chat... i wanna lame... i wanna be part of the grp but i juz cannot open up myself in front of them... wad is wrong wif me? i wanna be invlove but end up askin wrong question, saying wrong things or wadeva... or being juz too quiet... i thought i m already open then now seeing how i reacted in the outing, how i interact... why m i not as open as most of them? they talk freely, they interact freely, they know how to click... i gave myself many excuses... is it becoz i had a long day... is it becoz i dun post at the forum much which is why i feel distant? they seem to know each thers eons ago... and me juz join them... they call wach other by siblings... they bitch wif one another... they have fun (pun NOT intended) with one another and i feel... out... and i know it is not them... it is me... but wad is it abt me? m i really tt shy? i dun think so... low self esteem... i m workin on it... but i juz dun appeal to them i feel... but then again... they already formed their clique, they already r comfy... and here comes a stranger who is not really good at expressing himself... i see no reason why i would include him if i m in the click... maybe they feel the same way too... or maybe i m thinking too much... maybe bcoz i m thinkin too much tt caused all this things to happen ... so wad is my problem? m i worrying too much? maybe... m i expecting too much? no... i juz wanna be part of them to be able to laugh wif them and to joke wif them... thining back... i dun really have much frenz in the circle... maybe the 'i-know-your-name-and-face" kinda fren but very little if not none who had gone deeper... who will be patient enough to venture deep and be a close fren... i wan to have a kor like most of them... whom i can bitch wif and share wif... i wanna have a di like most of them...to bitch wif and to pamper... i wanna have a bunch of funny frenz to have fun wif and to share... but i juz dun seem to be able to get them... sometimes juz wish i would juz fade off the world... u know... die while sleeping...coz i seriously think there would be no difference if i m not ard... i mean pple will feel sad and stuff... but well i m not important... not much diff... i wanna make impact... i wanna share life... who is willing? upclose and personal... one to one... i m tired... i wan support... i wan close relationship... i wan frenship... i wan pple to know me beyond the surface... i long for interaction...

ok... enough of emotional babbling... today was quite cool coz i met the chi tea thread pple... FINALLY got to see who Linus was(one fine lookin young man i tell ya)...appealing in both looks and character... he is a nice chap...then was Eric... very very knowledgeble...coz he knows all the online dj stuff... which sounds like greek to me...(and i dunno greek... duh...)also very frenly... and then Danny... a frenly guy... nice chap... fun loving type of guy who is also approachable... A fellow lasallian... he is one nice comapny to me then... of coz met other guys...but did not really interact...then the clock strick 11.30...and i went home...after a long day starting from 9plus (the previous day ended at 5am btw... 2 1.5hrs long teaching, 1 1hr long meeting followed by 2hrs plus of service... hang out wif the pple... went for the thread outing... back hm slackin and blogging... long day... but guess wad... i not tired...hahaha...

jukebox[mavis hee tie chuang]

Fri, 21 May 2004 18:03:19 GMT

I did something that i have never done b4... i went to a spa... blue heaven (i think)... my fren brought me there...and wow... really...ummm... interesting... the pple there and stuff... quite an eye opener for me... esp the openess... kinda awkard yet fun...feeling of being free... dunno how to say lah... maybe wanna drop by there again... juz have to be careful a little... was touched on my arms 3 times by 3 diff pple... 5 dollars coz they say early bird... dunno wad it is...but it is fun lor... haha... wad we did there is another story... dun wanna share... go think...

before that... went to SP to get my enrolement done... instruction not clear so end up a lot of pple need to photocopy stuff... so actually can finish quite fast but at the end due to the lunch break of the photocopy auntie... many pple waited for her arrival and long long queue to get things printed then a lot of pple enrole at the same time so took quite some time... thank God (really) i was fast... so manage to get in the front few pple to get things done... got my student card liao... cool lor...

Today also announce new structure for CG... dun wanna comment abt it... as i expected... i m going to SP anyway...so does not matter...

Trying to get Jim... but juz can't call thru... if u reading this...drop me a msg ok?

LJ Barcode

jukebox[fann wong stay]

Wed, 19 May 2004 16:40:01 GMT

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was surfing my frenz blog when i came across these quiz... cool rite?

reading my old entries i typed in my comp (i did some backing up so now while replacing the files back into my comp i did some reading...) and decided to post some quotes from them...

"all i wan is someone there to listen and understand… and why is it tt I cannot find anyone to understand… I feel like crying…bt tears no longer flow…I feel like giving up…but all ask me to go… I tried hard to move but it is no longer wad I can do…coz my heart is gone…"
"I m tired…there is really nth tt I wanna do now…all I wan is to sleep and hopefully juz drift off to death…"
" When they know u deep enough…either they wan u more…or they run away from u… is there no one who will really appreciate u for who u r…is there anyone who sees ur deepest ugliness yet still wanna stand by u? not in this society…not in this time… I guess… not… or at least…there is no such person for me… all wanna see result from me…and if I fail to produce such results…they all will give up hope on me…they all would start to ignore me… who will be there with me and for me…all the way? Who?"
"All I wan is to be me…and someone who knows my heart…feels how I feel…comforts the pain…and be there for me… but who? How long more is pple juz going to see the surface…but not the inside… nvr judge a book by its cover… coz I m such a book tt is so often judge by the cover… open it and read it…it is a very nice book… I m a nice guy…juz understand me… and heal the pain in me… tt is all I wan..open the book and paste the fallen page on again…"

quotes from 11th Feb 03 type out on my comp... juz one day this is wad i type... guess i will paste more another day... dun wanna cause depression here...juz wan pple to see into my feelings, thoughts and my heart...

jukebox[jay chou an jing]

Wed, 19 May 2004 14:24:21 GMT

i was reading a few blogs... realise tt pple ard me not tt happy... why then m i still wallowing in self pity... pple ard me not happy still moving on wif life... but me...still trapped within my own pity party...

Looking at the people around
Those whom i call dear
Seeing their lives, they feel so down
Yet, I am never near

Reading the words they wrote from their heart
Words that comforts my soul
Even when their life's so hard
Cheer up I'm always told

Sorry my friend I'm not by ur side
But you are always missed
So now i promise I will never hide
To be with you i promise

Thanks for being a friend i need
Sharing your life so true
I will never leave u my friend indeed
Your troubles are mine too

To all my frenz... u know how much u mean to me... so do try to cheer up... i know life is tough... things may seem dim... and going against you... but i really wan all of u to know tt no matter how much stuff i have on my mind... u still mean alot to me... and i will always be there

"I'm never gonna walk away
when the walls come down some day
all along if u feel afraid
i'll be there when u call my name
you can always depend on me
i believe until forever ends
i will be ur fren" - CoCo Lee I will be your friend

jukebox[channel u news]

Tue, 18 May 2004 17:58:13 GMT

updating again... finally finish the backup of my files... alot of stuff to back up... dun ask wad it is... it is alot but nevertheless... i got it all back up... so i started to reinstall windows xp... then my stupid brother (who wannna be deaf coz when he plug on the earphone, he can't hear anything...not even when i my screaming near him...) refuse to participate in the installation... (me comp idiot) and now i end up having two OS on my computer... and then got the internet installed and wahlah... i m onine again... but i dun think i will do anything now...except email and blogging... wanna wait till tmr night or something... when my bro delete the other OS, my siblings erect their accounts...then i will make mine and set up my account... till then...
so here i m online blogging... but before tt i was reading some blogs and came pass a fren's blog... and was kinda shock to read the content... i thought i was a sad case...but well... i should not wallow in self pity anymore... no more pity party with i me and myself... i will be a support to him and my frenz ard me...
oh ya... online... so i m online...checkin my email and updating... nth much happened ever since tt day i tried to learn swimming... i mean... i still cannot swim and blah... but well... i know i will one day (coz ns will make sure i will)... other then tt... nth much happened... 2 more days to SP intake...and everyone tokin abt camp tt i dunno... wad camp???

jukebox[background tv discovery channel]

Fri, 14 May 2004 09:39:26 GMT

here i am again... at another frenz place juz tried to learn swimming... but i failed... guess i will leave it to the ns time to learn... i look like rudolf now... red nose reindeer if u dunno wad i m tokin abt... my nose now very red... hai...
feelin better coz got pple read my journel and then comfort me here and there... so a little better... but still a little sad lah... i still miss him... but i think i have moved on... now lookin for new target...hahaha... who wanna be my target...
little note to those who r reading this and is concern... thanks for participating in my life in this manner...

i was wondering... m i open enough in this journel... do i really write wad i m thinkin... i have another book... i call it reflections coz i will also write there... but... which is more personal... here or the book... i fear ple lying hands on the book... dunno... hai... think too much...

feel like writing a short poem...

(think of a title for me)
All by myself in this lonely time
Seeking for someone i call mine
Every new day here i will wait
Someone there to bellow me to wake
From the deepest dreams and fondest fantasy
To a world of realistic company
Someone whom i can call my own
And never again will i be alone

reminds me of another poem i wrote... but my comp reformat before and i did not back up... thus i lost all my poems weitten previously... but i remember a part...

title: Waiting
everyday i long
everyday i wait
everyday i brand new day
with hopes anew i'll wait

someone out there to call
someone out there fo me
someone out there to make today
a day just for me

my fren buging me to leave... hai...

jukebox[enya adiemus]

Tue, 11 May 2004 04:58:38 GMT

Hiding at my frenz house updating this stupid thing... i mean i finally got to come online... and update this thing but it is beginning to get a toil on me...coz using the net is so diff lately, not to mention updating this...

nothing much happened lately... noraml depressing self... i decided to go to SP... coz TP is too irresponsible... they say the interview result will be out in 2 weeks but now 3 weeks pass liao still no result... so i went down to TP to check... and they kept tellin me to wait for the letter... even after i told them tt i need for deferment from army and ask them to check wif the GO of the school... they juz tell me to wait for the letter... if tt's the case... i dun care... i'm going to SP...

other tt that, nothing much happened lately... and i m kinda getting tired of SPI stuff... the forums is kinda stupid as the days pass... i guess i will juz post occasionally and focus on the 'once-in-a-blue-moon-updated' webpage... the next update will be in June i heard... (half a year one update leh)

job interview today also gone already... depressed... need money!!!

wonder how many hearts in fridae now...

still pretty much missing him... was on bus yeaterday travellin to tampines (no 69) when i pass by the path where we walked down and i told him jokes... almost cried on the bus... hai...
a new day will come wif someone for me ... i will wait...

jukebox[qiu ze ni zhi dao wo ai ni](beginning to like qiu ze... find him quite good in acting and singing...not to mention cute...)